Back to earth...

I have just lost 2 of the most important elements in my life..

Firstly, is my beloved BDU 3066 Iswara. She was with me and my family for 14 years. Although it is just a car, which has no soul, yet this piece of metal has bring me many wonderful memories especially when i started driving it since my beta 3rd semester. I was fortunate to be able to travel safely to Melaka, Port Dickson, Putrajaya and many of my routine mamak's places with this car. She was one of the main contributor to my wonderful and meaningful uni life. Without this car, i guess i would not be enjoying as much as i had. Presently, it may just be a cheap car, but it has so much of sentimental values to me which cannot be valued by money. Thank you very much for the great ride. Hope her new owner will give a good care to her.

Secondly, i have to be apart with my dear for the moment. Although is a painful decision for me to face, yet i guess i should fully support her decision to concentrate on her studies right now. It should be a good test for us as to test whether our faith is strong enough to be together after some years. Anyway, i shall always cherish the sweet memories we had to lead me into a greater height in my life.

Although i have to continue my journey now without these 2 precious legs, yet i will still live with passion even i might need to crawl with my hands. I believe both legs will grow back and even stronger this time. Only heaven knows.....

Heaven Knows

She's always on my mind,
From the time I wake up, Till I close my eyes.
She's everywhere I go, She's all I know.
And though she's so far away,It just keeps getting stronger everyday
And even now she's gone, I'm still holding on
So tell me, where do I start, 'Coz it's breakin' my heart
Don't wanna let her go.

Chorus:Maybe my love will come back someday, Only heaven knows
And maybe our hearts will find a way. But only heaven knows.
And all I can do is hope & pray 'Coz heaven knows.

My friends keep telling me, That if you really love her,You've gotta set her free
And if she returns in time, I'll know she's mine,
But tell me, where do I start 'Coz it's breakin' my heart, Don't wanna let her go

(Repeat Chorus except last line)Bridge:'Coz heaven knows

Why I live in despair'Coz wide awake or dreamin',I know she's never there
And all the time I act so brave, I'm shakin' inside
Why does it hurt me so?

(Repeat Chorus)Heaven knows... heaven knows.

*Dear, i'm waiting for you.......

She is my greatest dear and the person i love most, Janet Choo

At the beginning, i started to know her during the June Intake Orientation. She was the sister of one of the OC. After 2 months when 1st semester started, i just got to know her well when we went for a lunch at Dengkil's Bak Kut Teh. During the conversation over lunch, my perception towards her totally become different from what i had earlier. Before this, my perception towards her was she was an arrogant person and kiddish. Even she was voted as Miss MMU, i wasn't attracted and impressed of her as there were few times when my frens and I greeted her, but she wasn't response in a friendly way.

As time passes, i began to realise she was actually a mature person comparably to her age. Caring and well-mannered, these are the qualities that i am looking for to be my soulmate. It has been some time where i have not endulge into romance relationship. The reason is because for all this while, i could not be find a suitable person who can match the characteristic that i am looking for. Thank God, now i have found my other-half.

On 13/08/2007, i have approach her to be my GF over a drink at a place which no body will ever thought of, which is the Cyberjaya Terminal Food Court. Although that place was not romantic at all, but i believe i had done it sincerely from the bottom of my heart. When she nodded her head and say Yes, my life has changed from that particular seconds and she would be my greatest gift not just for that time, but for the rest of my life.

Since the past 8 months, i have been living in happiness with my lovely dear. Although there were also many challenges we had to face whether from our relationship or our personal own lives, both of us have been motivating and guiding each other in overcome those challenges. That is why i always tell myself and her as well that she was not just my gf, but my soul partner till the rest of my live. Thank you dear for such a wonderful time that u have gave to me. Really appreciate it and i wish this feeling could be with me as long as possible.

Dear, i hope we can find a better solution than giving up our relationship just like that. It is not easy to find and be with the person we love most. Every problem has a solution, and not all the problem needed to be solved using the extreme way. Our relationship is not about 4 years, but is for many years to come. Life only comes once, let's treasure the relationship that we have. No body will know what happen goin to happen to us in the next minutes.

Anyway, i will still support whatever decision u made. I really hope you can give both of us a chance to continue and build this wonderful relationship that we have. Please allow me to share your burden and your happiness. I shall wait for you to come back.

No matter what outcome at the end of the day, I love you, Dear..................

May You be Well and Happy.........